Date: April 5, 2006
Date: April 15, 2006
Date: Sun, 16 Apr 2006
A number of you have sent me email indicating that it's been awhile since I last updated you all about my progress. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. I'm still overwhelmed, and somewhat humbled, by the support demonstrated by all of you. I've learned much from it, not the least of which is to point out my own past shortcomings when it comes to offering support to others in their times of need and the importance of doing so. Thank you all for showing me how to be a better human being.
The combination of chemotherapy and radiation treatments have taken an increasing toll on my body. I have been very fatigued for the last couple of weeks and spend most of my time sleeping or laying on the couch watching TV. These are two activities that I have always endeavored to keep to an absolute minimum and I'm having a hard time learning to accept this as a necessary condition.
A blood test from two weeks ago indicated that my immune system, particularly my white blood cell count, had failed to rebound from the previous chemotherapy sessions, so I had to give myself shots in the belly fat (shudder) for seven days to bring the count back up. While I don't really have a problem with other (knowledgeable) people sticking needles in me, I had an incredibly hard time learning to do it to myself. I had to force myself to do so as soon as possible in the morning so I wouldn't have to think about it any longer than necessary. Another blood test in the middle of last week indicated an elevated WBC count, so at least it worked.
Monday will be my last radiation treatment for the time being. I'll probably have the cranial radiation procedures after finishing chemotherapy in May, but I'm trying my best not to think about that for now.
I'm going to Hawaii for a week in early May! Besides being a damn nice place to recover, I need to go and see how it has changed since I was last there. I need to know if I still want to move there, and if so, gather some information and make some plans. In view of the dismal statistics I spoke of in my last message, I've decided that I should make every effort to fulfill my ambitions as soon as possible. While I recognize the need to keep a long range plan in mind, the importance of living for the moment has taken priority in my life.
That's all the news for now. I'll keep you all updated.
Date: April 17, 2006
Date: April 24, 2006
Iím just getting to my in box, been out of town. What a lame excuse!
Keep your spirits up soon youíll be enjoying Hawaiian Time.
I recall from my Dadís treatments, as he approach completion of therapy he became the most depressed, frustrated and physically exhausted. This is understandable. Then things slowly and methodically began to turn around. Heís doing quite well now. Heís back from his three month visit to Arizona and heís working in the yard having increased energy and appetite. His mental outlook is 1000% better even though he is quite aware of the fragility of life. Heís living day-to-day, making some plans and just enjoying things now.
So I know things seems bleak and you may feel like you have absolutely no control over anything about your life, but be as patient as you can. Things should begin to ease a bit. I firmly believe that the change of scenery will do you more good than all those needles and beams.
Cathy and Cory wish you the best. (By the way Coryís on his way to New Orleans to help with relief efforts.)
Keep on trucking.
Date: April 22, 2006
It is so good to hear that your white blood count rebounded (sorry about the self inflicted shots Ė yuck).
You remain in my thoughts and prayers, although Iíd prefer you back in the office (desk next to me is open) I am envious of the Hawaii thing and certainly understand if you make some new life decisions.
I consider you a good friend and a good person.
Godís blessings on your continued progress.